Halloween.

No idea what I'm doing yet -- but! I have a costume idea (finally)...

/obscure?

Lets just hope that I can get it done on time. I'm pretty excited about this plan.

Continued excitement and a little sappy.

So, I talked to Neil (my roommate) this morning re: living with Aaron. He seems to be okay, and I hope he's not just putting on a brave face about it. The timeline is set to February -- although, we'll be getting together and talking about it on Wednesday. And, February seems so far away. I wish it was tomorrow... but that would be jerky of me, and also, wouldn't give me much time to pack.

But! This is not why I wanted to post tonight.

I wanted to post tonight because I have no stopped thinking about Saturday night and how absolutely fantastic it was. So, here I am about to go into more depth...

We were woken up on Saturday morning by two little (adorable) munchkins jumping on us, which was followed by delicious pancakes and morning drinks at my brothers (by morning drinks, I of course mean beer. No, just kidding. Coffee and tea). Then Dave (the brother of mine) drove us back to Aaron's place -- where Aaron and I went straight back to bed until noon or possibly later. In between then and seven (when we left) we did stuff like... you know, have sex. He played on the internets for a bit and I played an awful lot of Sudoku.

Then we headed downtown to watch Repo! Which mostly meant standing in line until the show had started. I hooked Aaron up with a free VIP pass (because I work in the industry) and sent him on his way -- which caused the other people in line to tell me that I was a fantastic girlfriend. He watched the movie and I browsed a used record store (right beside the theatre).

When the movie ended we just walked. We walked around the downtown a little (and through the Annex on our way to Queen). We window shopped and held hands and he tried to keep me warm. It was just this perfect night... that is apparently hard for me to explain. But... in the end, it has kept me smiling for at least two days now.

And... I have to stop. I could talk about Aaron until my laptop runs out of power (and longer if there was anyone left to listen).

I hope that everyone else has had a good weekend too!

Excitement!

Aaron has agreed to move in with me. Wait, that sounds like I was forcing him. Okay, Aaron has decided that we should be living together. Does that sound better? Yes.

I am beyond excited. I'm so excited that I want to pick out furniture and colour schemes. I have been thinking about nothing else except all of the weird domesticated things I would like to do in our apartment. Simple things like... I want to make him dinner, or, I want to buy the newspaper on Saturday's and do the crossword at the kitchen table. This is absolutely nothing like me, and I love it!

Just a few hitches, of course, like always. But hopefully nothing too big. I want to be living with him in January, February at the latest... of course, I have a roommate currently and I don't know how he'll react to this -- but! this is what's best for me, Aaron, my cat, and also this wonderful relationship I'm in.

Oh, I need to calm down... it's still months away. I certainly have to start saving up money for first and last again.

Otherwise, things have been good. Spent some time with my brother and his wife/kids on Friday. Had a fantastic lunch with my mom on Friday afternoon at Mahari (or something that sounds like that) downtown -- I had chicken curry). Saturday I spent with Aaron. We went to see Repo! at the Bloor... it was way too busy. I didn't get in, but I got a VIP pass from one of my bosses and that got Aaron in at least. And then we went for a walk downtown and it was an absolutely perfect night. 10/10.

And now, now I need sleep. For, I have to wake up early to catch Neil and talk to him since the morning is the only time when we'll both see each other.

Good night, and all that.

More life stuff. The good, the bad, the... emotional?

Yesterday night was a mix of really good and really bad. Which is usually how my luck works out. (Though, the night ending on a good note was just perfect).

After the dentist I had to go to work. Which in itself is not a bad thing, I love work, and my job, and the people. It's really just dealing with self-righteous assholes every day that gets my back up -- but really, what else should I expect, I live in the Beaches... one of the richest, snobbiest areas in Toronto (I find). There was just one guy last night who made me feel like my authority as the Manager wasn't valid. I wish, I wish I would have kicked him out -- but my trip to the dentist prior had left me feeling vulnerable and weak and I (for once) was just not capable of being the usual 'I won't put up with your crap, get out of my theatre' person that I usually am whilst at work.

That confrontation put me in an even worse place. Also, I should mention that the dentist put me on antibiotics last week and according to my pharmacist, it completely negates the effects of my birth control -- so my hormones are all like 'omg wtf'. My mood swings are pendulous (I hope I'm using that word right). And my poor Aaron was welcomed home -- not by me mauling him (in a sexy way) right as he came through the door (like I had wanted to) -- but instead by me crying myself straight into a asthma attack, and without my emergency puffers too.

But, as always, he talked me through it and calmed me down.

I'm still stressed out today. My money situation is getting worse and worse -- and with a $5,000 dentist bill on the way, I'm not feeling too confident in anything. (Deep breaths Carolyn, deep breaths). On the bright side, he and I started looking at possible (cheaper) apartments. Not to say that moving in together is a sure thing yet (and I'm not getting all of my hopes up just in case) but, at least we're going to sit down and discuss it. Living with Aaron is incredibly important to me right now. It would be wonderful to see him every day -- and also fantastic to have my cat Locke somewhere where I'm able to give her all of the affection she deserves every single day instead of only seeing her a few times a week.

I have to stop writing, this is a long and serious post. Also, I have to get to The Watcher Comics to help my brother with the order.

Elections, life stuff, and et cetera.

As is the usual, Aaron, Neil and I went to the pub last night to witness the election results... but really, what was the point. Hurray for spending millions of dollars and having nothing change at all. Though, I'm still deeply saddened by the amount of seats that the Conservatives stole (got, I mean got) Canada needs a new voting system, the percentage of votes versus the percentage of seats is ridiculous. I mean, according the the percentages the Bloc was beaten out by both the NDP and Green -- but looking at the seats... what happened? Blargh. I am not a happy voter.

Also, in news (more personal than political), I just got back from the dentist. It will cost me over $5,000 to fix the problems with my teeth. Note to readers: this is what happens when you don't see the dentist for four years because you have no insurance. She (the Doctor) tried to freeze me and BAM! I became pale and shaky and my heart sped up; I was very close to passing out in the chair. Apparently that is very very rare. Needless to say, we didn't accomplish very much today. Again, blargh.

On the bright side, I saw Aaron last night and will be seeing more of him tonight post-work. He can't get enough of me (and certainly vice-versa) it is an amazing feeling to be wanted this much.

Completely early resolutions for next year (starting this year).

Re-posted from a note on Facebook, but have decided that it's an excellent way to start this blog...

(in no particular order)

- Get my drivers license, so that I may bring Aaron back home to Sudbury to see his mom whenever he'd like to go (and not have to take that horrible bus ride). Also, to carry myself to Brampton and provide a chauffeur system for my sister and her two kids. Not to mention allowing me to get out and finally see this wonderful country of mine.

- Get new glasses, so that I can see properly. Also, these ones are cracked and the lenses are about ready to fall out. I've had them since grade ten, and I know it will be weird wearing a different pair after all this time, but I think it's important to my eye sight.

- Go back to school. University, or college. I miss learning things so terribly. And though I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up, I wouldn't mind taking courses that I will probably never use in the business world (like Philosophy and Astronomy).

- Force myself to sit down and actually write something. Not even necessarily a complete book. Just anything. Writing is another thing I miss terribly, and it's an easily fixed thing.

I reserve the right to add things as they pop into my head.