A working life.

Apologies for the lack of posting over the last, what is it, 14 days? I've been a busy working girl with days off few and far between.

EB Games is great, it's like working at Blockbuster but less corporate in all the ways that matter to me. I can dye my hair, there are no sales goals, and I still get to do the things I love (like making the walls all alphabetical). Also, the tills are super easy to use and I'm working with video games. My boss and assistant boss are great and fun to work with -- though there are a few incompetent employees that I'm not especially fond of.

Aaron made Valentines Day perfect. I got it off from both jobs which was great. We woke up late, I made breakfast for us and then we did nothing for a bit (oh except sex, we certainly did that). Then he took me downtown for dinner at The Matahari Grill (which was amazing). We wandered downtown for a bit and ended up in a sex store which was awesome and I won't list any details of the rest of the night...

He's started playing Kingdom Hearts which makes me very happy -- I enjoy watching him playing a game I've always been very fond of.

What else?

I saw Watchmen yesterday with some film reps and my boss at the Fox. It was alright but I came out of it slightly disappointed and tired. It's very long sitting at almost three hours. The acting is not great, and they changed some things that I really wish they would have left alone. Bubastis is in it though (not red) and that made me smile, I love that cat. I did sit down and re-read the whole thing the day before though and I wouldn't recommend that to anyone who is planning on seeing it. Other than that it had a great soundtrack that I wouldn't mind picking up (or downloading). Oh and Rorschach and The Comedian were spot on.

I think that's enough for now. I'll try to keep updating regularly (or at least once a week) when I'm not bogged down with working at two jobs I love.

EDIT: I forgot to mention the AWESOME dessert from Dmitri's after everything else.

I'm a pro at crastinating.

My job interview went AWESOME. I will know about the job sometime next week. As long as my references aren't lying I'm in.

Still no pictures of my hair, I packed the camera already. By the time anyone sees it, it will be faded and not nearly as great I'm sure.

I only have my clothes and my toys to pack and I will be done. Done done done. Except of course for all of the garbage that has to be thrown out. There's a lot of it.

I have five hours until I go to Aaron's, tomorrow I move. It still seems like there's lots to be done. I probably shouldn't go out... but I wants to see him.

The current apartment still looks like there's tons of stuff to do, I don't understand it.

*sigh* I should get to it.

EDIT: I have started. AND I just found my studded collar from high school. Weird.

An interview, new hair, and a new house.

Lots of changes!

On Monday I went to a hair college on the Danforth and got my hair done. At some point I will show you all pictures. It's a raisin-brown (so, purple tinted in the sun) on top and the underneath is a bright red with purple highlights (also only appearing in the sunshine). It's very pretty and makes me want to wear make-up again.

Afterwords I dropped by the EB Games at Danforth and VP and ran into a friend from high school who took me out to lunch on his break and mentioned that EB was looking for a key holder, to which I replied, "I often hold keys". Today I dropped off a resume, tomorrow I have a job interview. One problem solved! Or almost solved. But I mean, really, me + games = sure win.

Also I move on Friday! Although, I haven't even finished packing yet. Yes, I should certainly get on that soon.

I'm going to go and make soup now.

Smooth sailing on a fairly windy day.

Things are going well so far, which is nice.
I got an e-mail back from CALC (the continuing education school) and they told me that depending on what I wanted to go to University/College for I would probably not need my actual high school diploma as I've finished all of the mandatory courses. However, if I wanted the sheet of paper then I should take a look at ILC (a night school/online course option) they were very helpful.
So, the school thing is going on a temporary hiatus until Aaron and I get settled into the new place and then I will start in earnest.

Aaron is having some difficulties with things that I will not go into on a public forum. However, this has brought me to the decision to get a secondary job. I know I mentioned that briefly before but now I'm very serious. I've been pushing my bosses for the raise that they told me about back in November and have asked for a reference letter to hand out with my resumes. Though, currently I am still on the finding a secondary 'job I like' and not settling for anything else. Honestly I'd like to work in either a book store or a sex store. Both of these things I am fantastic at. Reading and sex.

What else?
Oh, I'm thinking about dying my hair purple and blond on Saturday with some of the money from this paycheque as my last big 'something for me with my own money' thing. Thoughts?

Mghrurlllhhhhh....

Because apparently somewhere in the rules of my existence it is written 'cannot have everything go right for once' I am out hunting for a part-time job to back up the one at the Fox. It's partially my fault because I rushed into agreeing to something that was not completely rock solid (IE, another job at my brothers store) but I am down to three shifts a week. I will be making $600 a month; a lot less than I was making last year -- and with the add-on of another manager I've permanently lost a shift that I enjoyed. It's more frustrating because I actually like the other manager.
*sigh* I hate job hunting and now is a really hard time for it -- I mean, is anyone even actually considering hiring another staff member to pay when the economy is so rapidly falling apart. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Also, I have got to stop drinking. At least for a bit. I am too stressed that when I start drinking I get so upset and maudlin about EVERYTHING. Even the things that I'm sure about.

I feel like crap.

Quarter-life crisis, still occuring.

Aaron, refusing to be gentle about it, tells me to just go back to school and stop complaining about never doing anything with my life. Which... is maybe true, but still a little harsh.

Step one will have to be graduating from highschool somehow. At this point in my life, I really hate myself for leaving. It would have been so easy -- all I needed was four optional credits. The mandatory maths, sciences, and english are done all ready. Four, god damn optional credits. I would also like to briefly blame my school for not offering very much on the side of optional.
Now, the question is "how do I go about doing this?"
I could, in all probability, get my G.E.D. I have the book at home (or the massive study-guide as I like to call it). But I worry that I'm no longer smart enough in the maths and sciences areas to pass a test. I was (and probably am) very bad at testing. Class work? No problem. Exam? Usually didn't do so well.
I could go back to school. One semester isn't that long. But go back to highschool... really? I could barely stand it the first time around. And, I really don't want to be a 23 year old still in highschool. There are probably Adult Learning Centre's out there, but will they offer non-mandatory credits? Yes. I will have to look into this via the internet.

Aaron also says that he's way ahead of me on the way to becomming a Librarian so there won't be much competition there for me. And that many couples go into the same fields and end up never seeing each other at work. Also, that he'll work in the better library anyway (such a little bitch).

I'm still on a need to be writing kick. But again, am not sure what to do about it. Most story ideas have left my brain in search of authors capable of finishing them. Blah, I'm getting a little angsty aren't I?

But whatever. School first, side projects second.

Let's see what's out there, shall we?

Meaning of life... stuff.

My sinus headache has gone away for the most part, but I can still feel it lurking just behind my eyes. It's a little uncomfortable.

I have a beer now, I'm about ready to bare my soul in regards to my life and my job...

I think I need to start deciding what to do with my life. What am I going to be? Shouldn't I have a vague answer to this question yet? When did you decide, or have you yet? I want to know all about it.

So... what am I going to be, what am I good at? What do I enjoy?
-Writing
-Reading/books
-History (ancient, not recent)
-Filing (both alphabetical and numerical)
-Photography
-Philosophy
-Mechanics behind film (projectors, theatre)
-Using my hands

Where do I go with that? What combines most of these things?
It feels like Library Sciences would be a good direction. I love books and library's and sorting books... but I know that Aaron is also interested in this field and with us being together (and living together soon) I feel like maybe I would fall into a competition that I would be unable to win/stand. And I don't want to feel as though I'm copying him -- although, I've been considering becoming a librarian for several years now it's just unfortunately convoluted.

I don't know. I'm 23 now, shouldn't I have a direction yet?

I wish I went to school. I'm so lost right now.

EDIT 1:10am
This is remarkably difficult. I don't even know where to start.

Oh for the love of...

Yes, God.
That would have been the third post in less than three days with the word God in it -- and we couldn't have that, could we? Not this close to Christmas.

But, Jesus-fucking-Christ, I'm having a rough night. I've got a sinus headache that makes me feel like my brain is trying to escape out of my nose and tear-ducts, and every door I've touched has broken in some way -- though, thankfully not the new safe door (which had to be brought in to replace the one I broke the door off of).
The door at the Fox tonight would just not fucking close. At all. It wouldn't lock and Travis and I tried for over an hour to lock it and perhaps in the process broke it more. Who knows? I'll find out tomorrow night.
And then... yes then, I came home in the hopes of getting some sleep tonight and my own fucking door wouldn't open. My key just wouldn't work. I had to wake up my tired, cranky, groggy, possibly sick roommate to open it for me.
What the hell is with me and doors?

In other news, for about three hours today I deeply considered buying a house in the beaches. Yes. Buying. I'm all grown up now (like hell). Aaron and I sat down (through e-mail) and discussed it, agreeing that 'what the hell, why not?' And then I talked to my mom about the actualities of buying a house and came to the conclusion that there's no way in hell we can afford to do that right now. Even if for some reason we managed to obtain a good mortgaging rate there would still be hydro and heat and water and bills to pay. I need a nine-to-five (what a way to make a living) job. One that pays more than what I make now. I needs some full time work.
Though... no, I wouldn't leave the Fox completely.

But... what to do with my life. What on earth do I want to be when I grow up?
None of my life's dreams are obtainable... so what do I settle for?
If you had to settle, what would you settle for?
How many times can I say settle this blog?

I'm tired now.

I'm slightly not looking forward to tomorrow. Too much to do and not enough time. The Boyfriend and the Roommate are helping my Dad move my new dresser here from my Grandma's place in the morning. At like 10:30. But before they get here I'd like to clean my room, the bathroom, and the hallway so that my Dad does not see the filthy hovel I live in. Also, it needs a good cleaning again. I put everything off while I was sick. Or I put it off because I wasn't at home. Either way, I put it off.

My cat is trying to tear up the carpet right now. I just threw a catnip toy at her. She is unimpressed.

EDIT:
Oh, also, I saw Snarky's family at the sushi place near my work. That is all.